Sunday morning I woke up with a vague feeling of sadness. Of course my thinking self kicked in and needed to figure it out.
Saturday, I had spent the day in my kitchen with my new convection oven, my daughter and granddaughter (22 months old) and my daughter’s mother-in-law sister-in-law baking Christmas cookies, sampling Christmas cookies, and drinking a couple of glasses of wine. There was laughter and jokes, reminiscing and looking forward…and plenty of flour dust all over the place! The cookies turned out great, just one batch completely burned while we adored my granddaughter “baking”. A memory making day…
So why this feeling? A photo lovingly sent the day before by my cousin is the clue.
Here it is…
That’s my mom and me…isn’t she beautiful? Just glowing in her love for me just a few weeks old. I missed out on getting a lot more of that love because when I was 16 years old she passed away after a long, courageous battle with cancer. I remember some really important messages she gave to me…but a lot feels like it is missing.
One of the most important things that I have of hers is her statue of Mary. It sits on my desk where I do my writing along with her high school picture. She left me a legacy of my Catholic faith and trusting in God when times are really rough. She always trusted that God was her primary care doctor and could heal her in every way, even if it was not to be physically. This is THE most important thing she left me…it bonds us through the heavens and I feel her presence deeply. And Blessed Mary is there to help us along the way.
And the reason for the sadness? I just happened to remember that December 15, 1975 is the day she passed into the arms of the Lord she loves so much. It may sound strange, but at 54 years of age, I realize that she has been an incredible, maybe a better mother, from heaven than she may have been on Earth. She is right there in Heaven interceding for her children every moment…at least that would be what I would be doing! My deepest prayers are always for my children.
So my loving cousin sent me a photo of Mom loving me…just in time. Thank you Susan!
For all of you without your mom, rely on our mother in Christ Jesus. Our Blessed Mother Mary. She will console, encourage and uplift you every step of the way!