What’s that quote from St. Augustine? “Our hearts are restless, until they can find rest in you.” Yes. That is what I have been. Maybe I should have been writing more to calm my soul?
The summer presented an unwanted invitation from God (or maybe just something that happened). Anyway, back surgery and continuing recovery got in the way of anything I had wanted to do. Or did it?
Recovery times have always been annoying to me (and those around me!) I am NOT a good patient. I want to do what I want to do! But the fruits of time to read spiritual materials, time to watch my grandchildren grow and play, and time to be quiet and examine all those unwanted thoughts that come in when you can’t stay busy are coming to harvest.
When you ask God to give you your purpose, to give you guidance on how to clean up your act so you can move toward His purpose for you and then He does, well the dam breaks loose!
My awareness has been heightened and I am grateful. It is a daily re-centering of my heart, refocusing of my want-to’s and have-to’s and even in the blissfulness of consolations, it is still a discipline to be a disciple.
Just wondering how many of you are feeling a stirring in your restless heart? What are the fruits of this joyful anxiety for you?
Unsure? Sit down and rest awhile. And listen.